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Thirteen Reasons Why

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I have recently read a book called Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. This book is about a girl who committed suicide, but before she did, she recorded tapes and sent them out to the thirteen people whom she blames for her decision to take her own life. I think that this book really opens your eyes to bulling and makes you realize the impact you have on the lives of others, whether you realize it or not. For example, you may think that you are just joking around with someone, but they may take that seriously, and it might even affect them down to their very core. The reason for this is that people come from very different backgrounds, like maybe they have a lot of family problems (like myself), and they are unhappy with life, they may be in a very vulnerable state and if people were to pick on them, they may feel as though they have no one, and when they feel like that, they feel trapped, as though the pain will never get better because as humans, we are very short-sighted and we may not see that there is even a way out of the situation. And that is when people may begin to consider suicide, because they do not see their situation getting any better and they view suicide as the only way out. And this story follows Clay Jensen who is trying to find where he fits in all of it, and as we follow Clay on his journey, we get to see the factors which pushed Hannah Baker to commit suicide. I would definitely recommend this book to anyone, as it will show you that little acts of kindness can and will go a long way, and it might even inspire you to help others as much as you can, and even teach others of the impact that they have on the lives of others.

Bullying, And My Message to You

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My last post was my own personal story of bullying. I was stabbed in the back by people whom I thought were my friends, and they continuously tortured me every day; making fun of my for the things I liked, my race, anything they old think of… I wished that I would die many times, but I decided that I only had a couple months left of dealing with that horrid treatment. And I came to a realization, those people harming me did not matter to me at all, even after I die, they will not be there, it will be only me and God, and the same for them, they will not have each other, they will be alone with God, and they will be accountable for causing the suffering which they had inflicted upon me. After that, nothing they said or did to me mattered, I no longer cared because all I needed to do was keep it together until I graduated… This of course was easier said than done… However as the days went by, I grew happier and happier as I counted down the days until my suffering would end. At this point in time my confidence was very fragile because some things were happening at home, but that is for another blog. Everyday I went to school, I went to school with a very heavy heart and sometimes I would want to cry. But because of my immense trust in God, I pushed through it. And I made it. Graduation! Definitely one of the happiest moments of my life! Everyone else was sad and crying that they would never see each other again. I on the other hand, was celebrating! “I’ll never have to see these cretins again, its all over!” I thought. I did learn a lot of things because of this experience though, like trust in God since God gave me the strength I needed.

Disclaimer: There was a lot of horrible things which I have endured, both physical, and mental.

However, reader, I say onto you, no matter how hard things may be, no matter the pain you endure, it gets better, never give up, I am telling you this as someone who made it through this horrible experience in my life, which in itself is already full of tragedies. Thank you, and remember, you are the one who hurts yourself, others can only hurt you if you let them.

A Fall From Grace: It Gets Better

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There was a boy named Jerome, and man was he up there, he had a lot of friends, and life overall was pretty much great, except for a couple things that happened at home a couple years before, but that is not important, but those things that have happened at home took a good chunk out of him, namely, his confidence. Jerome’s friends decided to make fun of him about a year before, and to his knowledge, it stopped keywords: to his knowledge. Well, Jerome had a big graduation trip coming up to Quebec, and man was he excited, he couldn’t even sleep the night before. When they were on their way to Quebec, they were all talking about how excited they were for the trip, one of Jerome’s friends brought a PlayStation 2, so everyone talked about playing Jerome’s Grand Theft Auto 3 game. During the first night, Jerome was falling asleep when he was jumped by his friend, Jeff and started to choke Jerome, and somehow the teacher found out, I guess because of all the commotion, and then another friend of Jerome, Clarence said that he was a snitch, even though Jerome never told anyone. But what happened next was that one of the teachers told Jerome’s mom, and well, let’s just say that she’s Jamaican, and she went flipping mother bear on the kid, he was so scared to the point where he decided to “snake” Jerome and ruin his reputation, which totally worked. After that, the full fledged bullying began, they isolated Jerome and then he lost all his friends, and no one would even talk to him unless they were about to make fun of them, and this happened every day. Until one day Jerome got closer to God, and he believed that no matter what, God will always be there for him, and in order for him to see the beautiful days ahead, he has to cope with the dark days that he was in now and he viewed this as a test, from God and as the late, great Tupac Shakur says: When I was alone, and had nothing, I asked for a friend to help me bear the pain. No one came, except God. When I needed a breath to rise, from my sleep. No one could help me.. except God. When all I saw was sadness, and I needed answers. No one heard me, except God. So when I’m asked.. who I give my unconditional love to? I look for no other name, except God”. Jerome now goes to highschool and I guess that his beliefs that there were brighter days ahead, was true, because he is happier now than ever before, remember how I said that things were going on at his home? Well God, worked those things out, too. And it is funny how even after everything, Jerome forgives those people who hurt him, and the funny thing is how they are acting like he did something to them, which is beyond me, how they seriously believe that he hurt them somehow. So long story short, God has a greater plan for each and every one of us, one that we as humans are too short-sighted to see, evidence of this would be when Moses and the Jews wandered the desert for 40+ years, and in the end they were lead to a beautiful place, and of course they questioned whether or not the travel would be worth it. And the though you may think that you have it tough, remember when Jesus died for your sins? Yeah, well he never complained though he was beaten gruesomely, mocked repeatedly, and when he wanted water, they gave him vinegar, and being crucified nails driven through his hands and feet, graphic I know, but it is the pure truth he went through all of that just for us and we do not even put him first in our lives, we let money, fame, and other secular things come first in our lives, I am not telling you to be perfect, but rather to hold God to some value in your life. And remember God only gives his toughest battles to his strongest warriors. So please, keep your head up.